Gestational diabetes

I took the three hour glucose test last Friday.  I had an O B appt on Tuesday and received the results. I failed. I failed at the one hour and two hour marks. I actually handled the information very well. I contained my crying until I was alone in the car. After a few minute cry, I decided that I had to do what I had to do and it is only for approximately 11 weeks. So I have my appt with the nutriti0nist on Tuesday this week coming.  I have already been watching and changing my diet. I think I have a bit of depression. Nothing taste good, I keep craving sugar (I am not giving in to these cravings), its no fun to go to the supermarket or out to eat.  Not sure if it is just the GD or if work has a lot to do with it.  It's work probably more. I actually said I hate my job on Friday and cried.

I am very frustrated. I can't get my job done.  More things keep getting added to my plate and I am overwhelmed. I leave later this year than any year prior.. I don't feel like I can manage my time anymore. Part of it is paperwork changes, one kid who takes hours of my time with his outbursts, doing two job roles as one person, not being able to say no ( I am a helper, I am a school counselor).  There are just to many pieces to the puzzle.  It is pretty bad when I lay awake on a Friday night/sat morning from 3 am to 5am because of work.  Ugh. I actually can't stand my district ....they just keep putting more on everyone.  It's sad that this week is nati0nal school coun$eling week and I usually hang posters, make treats for the staff, put stuff in mailboxes, and do fun activities with the students; however I have no motivation to do anything now.  Is it hormones and I can't handle the stress like normal or is it really as bad as I think it is???

Oh we'll I guess I will see how Monday goes! 10 days till pres weekend (1 day off). 34 days till spring break and I go on leave right after that!

Another positive, things are moving a head on the nursery!

Failed!

I failed my one hour gluc0se test. I received word on Tuesday night. I cried, I researched, and then I reached out to some friends that had GD.  I am devestated and can't really discuss it without crying. I scheduled the three hour already! I am doing it Friday. It pisses me off that'd have to use a sick day for it.  So did you fast for your one hour test? I did not and was told I didn't have to....now I am kicking myself.  I need more time to process this. I don't think my eating habits are that bad.  I scored a 139 and 130 is when they refer you to the three hour. Ugh I needed to get this out but I am getting upset just thinking about it. I slept horrible last night....too much glucose thoughts.  Will I pass the three hour? Will I be changing my habits for the next twelve weeks or more?

Many emotions

I am feeling many different emotions today. I had my glucose test this am and during that I got teary. I was just thinking about how I wanted to hold my baby and not be waiting in a lab. Then I realize that the lab did rho- gram on me and I had already spoken with my doctor a few weeks ago and we decided there was no need. I am negative and so is the donor. Well the nurse practioner filled at the glucose paperwork and marked of rho-gram on the labs which I didn't catch. So after leaving the lab, I strolled downstairs and went to my ob office. I told the receptionist the story and she had me wait. The message I received through the receptionist from the nurse practitioner was that she would contact the lab to make sure I wasn't charged. I surprisingly remained calm, said thank you and left. I was proud of myself because I feel like I am moody, grumpy, and cranky since the beginning of the third trimester. I can't get comfortable. I can't sleep long periods. And I am not sure I like these kicks, punches, or whatever....sometimes they don't feel good!

After I left the hospital, i picked up lunch and ran a few errands as I made my way about a little less then an hour from home to visit a friend who just had a baby.  The baby M was beautiful and little miss personality. It was great to catch up.  But my friend mentioned some things about her labor or what she didn't do and I felt anxious later.  1. She didn't take a birthing class. I wasn't planning on it either.  I don't feel the need to nor do I want to. I have been doing a little reading and watching online.  2. She had her mom, her dad, and the baby's dad in the room with her. Awkward! I definitely don't want to traumatized my dad that way! I just planned on it being my mom and maybe my sil if she is available.  3. She lives with her parents and she mentioned how it was nice to have them their after if needed.  I am very independent and as long as I am physically capable, I just pictured it me and baby after....now I am stressing about it.  This is when the old.....sucks to be single mentality comes back.   But really how helpful are the dads afterwards.

I feel like this third trimester has messed with my hormones. I am definitely more emotional and anxious.  I don't know if I can stand twelve more weeks of the anxious emo thoughts.

27 weeks and so tired!

I am feeling so tired this week! I am getting sleep at night; however it is with interruptions (bathroom, discomfort, sinus stuff).  I just feel so tired. It is 6:30 on Sunday night and I could sleep right now but I know that will lead to me being wide awake in the middle of the night plus it could throw off my whole day tomorrow!

I spent the weekend shopping. I went to the local consignment stores I like looking for more maternity but it felt like neither had nothing new since before the holidays. My regular sweats and yoga pants are starting to not fit as are my regular long sleeve t's, so I feel like I need some clothes to survive the next three months. It is quite depressing seeing two dressers, a huge closet, and totes full of clothes that I can't wear right now especially work clothes!  It is all worth it in the long run. Any how I did find leggings at se.ars and long sleeve t's at ko:hls today that were on clearance.  I am a bargain shopper and never really buy anything at full price.

5 days of work and then a three day weekend!  I will be cleaning and preparing for a game night at my house the following weekend.

26 and a half week appt

I had an appointment today. Nothing new. Heard a great heart beat. First stomach measurement. I was given the script for the hour glucose test. I am going to try to get it on M*LK day!

In other news, I registered at the end of December. The crib is built. I found a barely used bassinet for twenty bucks! Next on my agenda is the letter wall decals!

I need to start packing up my office and curriculum closet of my things I want to take home when I go on leave! I'll get to it but work is so busy that I don't think about packing and leave until I get home!

I enjoyed delurking for some of the blogs I read faithfully!

25 weeks and counting!

I am a bad blogger! I think of posts to write but then I never start them! I am 25 weeks today!

I did a reveal cake for my niece and nephews at 20 weeks! I have been feeling okay. Exhausted during the first trimester and last week heartburn has started. Everything has been good. I had to do a fetal echo cardiogram because my older brother was born with a whole in his heart. Everything game back as okay!

I am enjoying the time of for the holidays! Back to work in three days. Then the countdown til spring break!

I had new carpets installed in the babies room last week ....pink carpets had to go! I need to get the crib built and then start organizing! The biggest waste of time has been trying to find new drawer handles for the dresser that is in the nursery instead of buying a new dresser. Still searching and returning pieces of handles!  I am suppose to go register tomorrow! I guess I will need to start blogging more often now!

Of to research some baby gadgets to be ready to register tomorrow!

Catch up

I did not post in June/July because I in the waiting game of the fertility realm.  We missed my ovulation in June. It happened over a weekend.  We started over in July.  After 4 days in the row of blood work and u/s, we had it timed correctly.  Oh and the use of clom.id.  Which I did not originally want to use but then I did not want to miss July.  The iui was done Saturday July 21. And wow has it been a long two weeks.  I did things to keep myself busy but wow it still felt forever.

I worked on lesson plans, set up new bookshelves for my office, and other stuff.  I read a lot of books. Thank you library e-books.  I went to the beach for the weekend and will be going back this week for the week with the family.

I took a preg test last week (can't remember what day) and it show a faded line. Too early.  But much relief.  Did one Sunday and the same.  I have my appointment at the drs for blood work tomorrow.

In the meantime, the car has been in the shop for air conditioning issues.  It is not in my financial plans to buy a vehicle this year.  So I am paying 550 dollars to get an air conditioning sensor and hopefully solve this problem.

I am excited! I just need confirmation from the dr.  I am getting annoyed with questions and people telling me what to do.  I told my mom it is going to be a long 9 mos if I am cranky.